A memorable day.
I probably made one of the hardest and life changing decision in my life.
I asked my mentor to really discipline me. I mean REALLY discipline me.
I wanted my life to be changed, but in the past few weeks, i found out that you can't rely on yourself. I am weak; i can't count on myself. So i asked for help.
I asked Nicky ayi to discipline me - reporting my daily schedule, teaching me practical ways to achieve my goals at this time, correcting my character flaws and all that stuff - just to help me run the good race.
It'll hurt, i know it will. I'm not used to be disciplined by others, i used to discipline myself. But I WANT TO BE CHANGED!!!! THERE IS NO COST!
I want to change other people's life, but my life has to be changed first!!!
I DON'T HAVE TIME TO WASTE!!! TIME IS TICKING BY. every minute, every second!
and to be realistic, I AM NEARER DEATH EVERY MOMENT WITHOUT FULFILLING MY CALLING!!!!!
We often think that just because we want means we already are
No, just because we want to love God, doesnt mean we are.
just because we want to live holy, doesnt meant we are
We often think that as long as we are willing, time will get us there someday.
But WHEN WILL THAT SOMEDAY BE TODAY?
do you want it bad enough?
If you want it bad enough, you'll pray every day that that someday will become today
If you want it bad enough, you'll do EVERYTHING you can to make that someday become today
If you want it bad enough, you'll do NOTHING that will hinder you
Yes, God looks at our hearts
Yes, His grace is sufficient for us
Yes, He loves us no matter what
Yes, He's pleased with our broken and weak love
But i'm not satisfied with Him just seeing my willingness
I don't know about you, but i want to make Him proud of me.
I want to make my father proud.
On Judgment Day, i want to be able to stand before Him and hear Him call me a good and faithful servant. Not just a servant who didnt rebel, not just a servant who didnt do terribly bad stuff, not just a servant who was willing to obey but never did, I want to be called a good and faithful servant. I want to do everything i can to please Him.
Being radical or passionate is NOT a feeling. It is passion that results in standards, holy standards.
- Marian Pan
(sorry, i didn't tell you that i was going to use it.)
No, just because we want to love God, doesnt mean we are.
just because we want to live holy, doesnt meant we are
We often think that as long as we are willing, time will get us there someday.
But WHEN WILL THAT SOMEDAY BE TODAY?
do you want it bad enough?
If you want it bad enough, you'll pray every day that that someday will become today
If you want it bad enough, you'll do EVERYTHING you can to make that someday become today
If you want it bad enough, you'll do NOTHING that will hinder you
Yes, God looks at our hearts
Yes, His grace is sufficient for us
Yes, He loves us no matter what
Yes, He's pleased with our broken and weak love
But i'm not satisfied with Him just seeing my willingness
I don't know about you, but i want to make Him proud of me.
I want to make my father proud.
On Judgment Day, i want to be able to stand before Him and hear Him call me a good and faithful servant. Not just a servant who didnt rebel, not just a servant who didnt do terribly bad stuff, not just a servant who was willing to obey but never did, I want to be called a good and faithful servant. I want to do everything i can to please Him.
Being radical or passionate is NOT a feeling. It is passion that results in standards, holy standards.
- Marian Pan
(sorry, i didn't tell you that i was going to use it.)
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